I've been thinking....

Its time to move on...I'm such a long term relationship person that i cant seem to get away from any of my ex's lol... I can't just start a relationship with someone. I cant even have "boo's" (despite popular belief). I dont understand how people can talk to like 5 people at the same time with all of them being potential boyfriends... We have to be friends for a long time before i become exclusive with someone. I guess that's why I've only had 2 real boyfriends in my life...Its because we become such good friends that it seems as if no matter what we go through, we always seem to find our way back to each other. Both of my ex's have been texting and calling me and i just dont know what to do. Im tryna hold friendships with them, but the love i have for both of them just makes me remember the times we spent together and all the happy times...now i dont wanna be back in a relationship with either of them but i just miss being held and those little conversations we would have. So in the midst of all this thinking, i have come to the conclusion that i am ready for a new relationship. I went through the "buddy" stage, i have a lot of guy friends, but now im ready to have someone that i can just have to hold. im tired of all these hood niggas... im tired of ghettoness and drama... i want someone that will respect me and one that knows how to have fun...i dont want someone that tries too hard or forces me to like them...i need sensitivity...someone who pays attention to the little things i say...someone who notices the little changes i do (a new shirt, a little make-up, new earrings)...but shit those kinda men are hard to find, especially at this school...but oh well maybe one day someone i never expected will grow up and surprise me and i'll fall deeper in love with them than anyone i've ever loved...Here's to hoping....